18 June

Today is officially 18th of June. Supposedly this is a special day. Ok this time im not going to post anything benefical. Its just a lift of feeling. And I feel that i got to write this because i reckon for the next years, im not going to post anything like this anymore. Maybe next year i am able to forget the momories between us. Being together for 3 years, how are you going to say that i will able to cope with this in just a few months. Impossible! To make it worse, this my first love. People said that that first love were unable to forget. And I say, that is so true. However, this date also the beginning of a crack.

Flashback

Today is 18.6.2012.  And i still thinking on how would I celebrated this date with her. The present is in the bag, neatly packaged. Arghh! It is so tense right now. And now, the biggest mistake that I make is i dont approach her as i had the chance. Why im being so shy? And what come the next day is really astonishing. "I dont really expect the expensive presents of yours, all I need is just a simple birthday wish from you!". I am speechless. Im really sorry, but i couldnt do anything about it. It is a past, and the past never come back. I should learn from this mistakes..

Now

This date still haunting me. But I think life should go on, right? I still wished birthday, but this time it was feelingless. Huh! I know that it will never be the same, but still deep inside me, I hoped that there will second chance.